新的一年新的开始。
虽然算是mature了，但我不快乐。
利用让我失去珍惜的东西换取个人性格。是最令我可恨的事情。
我失去朋友。
我失去第一个，连第二个也保不住。
家人分散。
现在的我，很孤独。。。
以前孤独时候，我已经感受过了。
我还以为我得到。还以为我已经摆脱了。
但我又跑到原地了。。。
我已经很tired了。。。我的目标一次一次的打击。。。

我真的好希望。。不要失去了。。我很希望你们回来。。
wan,jun lng, 哥，jiejie,还有其他。
我真的真的。。。很希望你们回来。。。。

亲爱地~
不管怎么样，我们都要熬过来好吗？
有什么不开心的都告诉我
我绝对愿意分担
别忘记天平座最看不顺眼不公平的事~
什么都你一个人在扛算什么啊？
其实我并不介意
是不是男女朋友关系
有没有在一起
对我来说嘞
最重要的是我们彼此知道我们是相爱的
我也不介意年龄问题
其实能不能沟通才是最重要的不是吗
不要在意时间长短
只要真正付出过
即使到最后没成功
觉得对得起自己
回想起来也不会后悔
不就可以了吗
别管一开始就面对很多的困难
别管以后可能要被逼分隔两地
把现在能做的
做到最好
就可以了。
あきらめない！がんばってください!!!

i dont care how bad you are.i just wanna be with you.
previos this message. what did you wrote for me! i really touching you sent for me this message...

why you dont just wait until school reopen .
why you decide to give up~
i really suffered ,angry last night.
if i did mistake to you.please give me a chance to change.
i`m not a perfect person.but i can be better and better.
why~ you told me we will cross over no matter what situation we are.
i really cant face the reality. i dont want to talk about it.i just wanna to calm down!

我只想哭。。。
为什么会酱。。。
我很痛。。。
我的信心有被spoil了。。
我真的不知道！！！

我不懂为什么你变成酱!!!
我真的受不了了！

=o=

虽然我不romantic..
笨~
awkward=o=

但。。。
我是真心的。
不过发生什么事。我只想你在我身边。
虽然到现在没有想到~
就算你reject了。
但我会make effort的。直到你不爱我为止or我对你没感觉。

好了~就酱多了。

问题一：
你爱我吗?


错误答案A：爱
错误答案B：这还用问吗?
错误答案C：你烦不烦啊?


标准答案：
目光怜爱的望着对方三秒
然后神情的点一下头
同时发出'嗯'的声音
然后一把把她揽在怀里......


解析：
答案A会让她觉得你太不严肃了、纯粹胡弄她
答案B会让她觉得你对她的爱不够坚定
而且她一定会喋喋不休的问到底、让你给她明确的答案，够你烦的
答案C过后一定是一顿大架或冷战

其实女人对男人是不是爱她这件事儿心里特有数
她这么问纯粹就是撒娇调情
你抱抱她亲亲她比回答什么都让她高兴



问题二：
你看我这件衣服好看吗?


错误答案A：挺好看的
错误答案B：还行
错误答案C：真好看..我老婆穿什么都好看


标准答案：
来来来
转一圈让我看看......
待她害羞的转完一圈后
把她拉过来
拉 着她的手微笑的看着他说：真挺好看的


解析：
答案A会让她觉得你应付她
答案B会让她觉得没自信..
在她心里她穿什么你都 应该觉得好
可是如果真说好看
像答案C一样她又会觉得你花言巧语不真诚

所以啊..
你要表示出对她提的这个问题的认真程度
必须要仔细的看看再说



问题三：
在她把她的闺蜜介绍给你认识之后
回到家她问：你觉得我这朋友怎么样啊?


错误答案A：挺漂亮的
错误答案B：不怎么样，比你差远了
错误答案C：我都没怎么注意她


标准答案：
我觉得她对你挺真诚的
应该好好珍惜这样的朋友


解析：
答案A纯粹是没事儿找抽型的
女人是绝不能允许你在她面前说别的女人好的（当然母亲除外）
答案B听着就太假了
答案C你一定觉得回答得挺高明的吧..
她压根儿就不会信
而且她会展开想像分析你为什么不愿意对她的朋友进行评价

所以要避开问题转个弯儿回答
让她觉得你一切都是为她着想
她会有被呵护照顾的感觉



问题四：
你觉得我胖了吗?


错误答案A：没胖
错误答案B：好像是胖了
错误答案C：呦..是不是最近太累啊?怎么都瘦成这样了?


标准答案：
过来让我抱抱
等抱过之后你再说：我就喜欢你这样的..有点肉


解析：
答案A回答得太干脆了吧?她听着不过瘾
答案B纯属找骂
女孩子怎么能喜欢听别人说她胖呢?
即使你再三强调你喜欢胖的
她还会不高兴
答案C听着都那么虚伪
现在的女人哪那么好蒙啊..

其实在女人的心里
她还是希望男人不在乎她的胖瘦
虽然嘴上说为了你减肥
其实是为了自己更漂亮能穿更多好看的衣服
所以你用肢体语言表示出你喜欢她有点儿肉就可以了



问题五：
我和你前女友比起来
你更喜欢哪一个?


错误答案A：废话..当然是你了，要不然干吗跟你在一起?
错误答案B：嗯..怎么说呢?如果让我说实话，各有千秋吧！
错误答案C：她比你差远了


标准答案：
狠狠的咬她一口或亲她一下或捏她的小脸蛋
等到她撒娇的嗷嗷叫的时候
你就说：下次再问这种无聊的问题还得这么惩罚你


解析：
答案A也太生硬直接了吧?
她接下来就会问：那你以后碰见比我好的是不是也得把我踹了啊?
答案B您就等着分手吧！忒实在了也....
答案C听上去还不错，但你这不是抽自己嘴巴嘛?
你说自己前女友不好会让女人很得意而降低了你自己的身价

其实在女人心里
她特别希望你的前女友是个特别优秀的女人
而偏偏是你不愿意跟她好了
这样女人心里会有成就感的
可是你又不能直接说前女友有多好
所以就用她喜欢的方式来回避问题吧！
（至于她是喜欢你捏她的脸蛋儿还是咬她一口我们就不知道了）



问题六：
如果我和你妈妈同时掉进水里
你会救哪一个?


错误答案A：你有聊无聊啊?
错误答案B：一块儿救
错误答案C：宝贝儿别难为我，再说这种情况也不会发生的


标准答案：
哦..我没告诉你吧?
我妈是游泳健将


解析：
虽说问这个问题确实很无聊
但你也不能像答案A那样
这会引来喋喋不休的争吵
答案B她一定会不甘心的追问下去
你不想清静清静吗?
答案C听上去还不错
但还是很牵强

不如就幽默一回
别让她一天到晚的老杞人忧天没事儿找事儿了



问题七：
如果我老了、难看了你还会爱我吗?


错误答案A：不可能..你老了也好看
错误答案B：女人不同的年龄段有不同年龄段的魅力
错误答案C：没事..你老了我也好不到哪儿去，咱俩谁也别嫌弃谁


标准答案：
我巴不得你难看点儿老点儿呢..
这样放在家里多放心啊！


解析：
答案A她听着也高兴，但心里知道这是绝对不可能的
答案B就赶紧打住吧！唐僧来了......
答案C不就说她老了肯定不好看了嘛..她怎么能接受呢?

所以啊..
最聪明的答案就是既让她打消顾虑
又让她知道你特别在意她特别怕失去她

情境：晚上十一點五分。熱線電話中。女人說得正起勁，
男人不小心打了呵欠。
不懂女人心的例子：
女人（試探地問）：「你想睡覺了喔？」
男人：「對啊。今天上班好累。」
女人（故作體貼狀）：「好吧，不吵你了。快去睡吧！」
男人：「喔，好。那你也早點睡。」啪。
男人掛下電話。
五分鐘後，電話鈴響。
被吵醒的男人：「喂！？」
女人：「．．．．．．」
男人：「誰啊？」
女人（一肚子委屈狀）：「你是不是對我感到不耐煩了？」
男人：「啊？什麼？」（丈二金剛摸不著腦袋）
女人：「．．．．．．」
男人：「怎麼了啊？」
女人：「你是不是覺得我很煩？」
男人：「很煩？？為什麼？」
女人：「．．．．．．」
男人：「到底怎麼了啊？你不說我怎知道？」
女人：「人家講到一半，你就打呵欠，又自己先跑去睡覺．．．．．．」
男人：「可．．．可是，是你叫我先去睡的啊？」
女人：「你都說要睡了，不然我還能怎麼樣？
男人：「唉！如果你要我聽你講話，就直接說嘛。幹麼叫我去睡，結果自己又在那邊生悶氣？」
女人：「我那有生悶氣？」
男人：「這樣還說沒在生氣？好啦好啦，下次我不睡了嘛。可以了吧？」
女人：「那有什麼意義？我要你自己心甘情願，想聽我說話才聽，而不是因為怕我生氣！」

結局：男人又多花半小時安撫對方。實際就寢時間：十一點四十分。
加上先前爭執的緣故，睡覺時情緒有點悶。明天搞不好女人還會冷飯重炒一次。

深諳女人心的例子：

女人正在興頭上，男人打了呵欠。
女人（試探地問）：「你想睡覺了喔？」
男人（語氣雖然疲累，但表示出興致）：
「嗯。有一點。今天上班比較累。不過你還沒說完啊，繼續說。我在聽。」
女人（得到安撫）：「喔，不過你累了。不然你先去睡好了。」
（還是有試探意味。千萬不能中計，馬上掛下電話）
男人：「今天沒午休，的確比較累一點。
不然明天早一點打給你，我們再聊久一點，好不好？」（解釋原因，並且提出補償）
女人：「喔，好吧。快去睡。你一定很累了。」
（已經願意放你去睡覺了。不過打鐵趁熱，別停下來）
男人：「那你打算幾點睡？」
女人：「不知道，再過一下子吧。」
男人：「好啊。不過不要太晚睡，對身體不好。我會心疼耶。」
女人（嬌嗔狀）：「好啦。」
男人：「我最愛妳了。」（眼皮垮下了也要記得說，功虧一匱可就划不來了）
女人：「我也愛你。好好休息喔。」。（終於心花朵朵開了）
男人：「嗯。」
啪。女人掛下電話。

結局：十一點十分，完美的句點。男人順利就寢。睡得香又甜。隔天說不定還有morning call。

結論 1：女人要的是感覺。很多時候，不能用理性的腦袋去思考她們的邏輯。
結論 2：多花幾句唇舌，講幾句貼心話，可以讓你省下超過半小時的寶貴時間。
結論 3 : 遇到這種情況，要讓女人先掛電話。以免後患無窮。
結論 4：如果你的女人不像上述例子這樣，那麼恭喜你。請好好珍惜她；
如果你的女人和上述例子一樣，請別指責她「無理取鬧」。她要的其實很簡單。

記住25條了，你就成熟了

1、 遇到不想回答的問題 ：直視對方的眼睛 ，微笑、 沈默 。

2 、走路抬頭挺胸，心情不好時，不想跟人招呼，點頭微笑，逕直走過 。

3 、請記得 ：好朋友的定義是，你混的好，他打心眼裡為你開心，你混的不好，他由衷的為你著急 。

4 、做自己的決定 ，然後準備好承擔後果 。從一開始就提醒自己 ，世上沒有後悔藥吃， 而我永遠有個 B計劃。

5、 自己分內的事情 ，努力做到一百分 。

6 、接受自己不過是個"小小的我" ，但眼裡要能夠悅納"大大的世界" 。

7、 如果你真的喜歡一個人，就給他自由。如果他能回到你身邊，他就是你的，如果他沒有回來，那他也永遠不屬於你。

8 、不要試圖給自己找任何藉口，錯誤面前沒人愛聽那些藉口。

9 、不要隨意發脾氣，誰都不欠你的 。

10 、不說謊話 ，因為總有被拆穿的一天。

11 、別低估任何人。

12 、你沒那麼多觀眾 ，別那麼累 。

13、 過去的事情可以不忘記 ，但一定要放下。

14 、別人說的記在腦袋裡，而自己的， 則放在心裡。

15 、社會是有等級的， 很多事不公平， 別抱怨 ，因為沒有用 。

16 、你永遠沒有你自己想像中那麼重要 。

17 、錢能解決的問題統統不叫問題。

18 、無論何時說"我愛你"，請真心實意， 無論何時說"對不起"， 請看著對方的眼睛。

19、 永遠不要以貌取人，慢慢地說，但要迅速地想。

20 、找點時間，單獨呆會兒 。

21、 不是自己的東西不要 ，就是再喜歡也不行 ，要懂得放棄 。

22 、不要覺得是生活虧欠了你 ，其實是我做的努力不夠 。

23 、努力向前，再努力向前，再努力一下下，願望就會實現 ！

24 永遠沒有堅持到底的失敗，也不會有半途而廢的成功。

25 三人行必有我師，沒有人會比你弱，好學、上進的心態。多問問自己："我努力了沒有？"。

decision

虽然我不知道说什么。。。我想要dissapear for while..
我太weak了。。。什么事不成功。。。连一个我对你的promise做不到。
凌。。我希望你不要再叫我james了。。我希望我们可以变回去一样的叫我霖。。
我真的很希望你叫我这名。也希望有说有笑一起唱歌。
我不知道该说什么。。。我不想一直在你facebook看你照片。
我很痛苦！我没办法活快乐！
too late for us, for me too.
认识你六年了。。。可能我本来就是空气本来就是不存在的。。
可能是我一湘情愿。。
对我来说。。你是我一家人。。但我也爱你。
我决定了。。。虽然不知道用了多少时间。但会回来的。。。

Chapter One - How I Met Her

California has issued at least 6 drivers licenses to people named Jesus Christ. That's a fact! Most dreams last only 5 to 20 minutes. That's a fact! 'Jedi' is an official religion, with over 70,000 followers, in Australia. That's a fact! The school will start at 8am, and 7.45am I'm still sleeping in the bed. That's....

'...A...FACT?!' I screamed after a peek at my alarm clock. 'Bet, I should have threw you cracked piece of metal is a fact too!' Great, I'm late for the first day of school at this 1st chapter!
Washed my face, brushed my teeth, changed my clothes, and my shoes on. Did I missed anything? Guessed not! I grabbed my bag and left the house. I snapped the door with a touch of my heel. A long way still from school, so I started to hop my step. There are 3 turning point for me to the school like a big "Z" on the map, I just passed the 1st one which is the street for my favorite Ice-cream shop, Ice-Soda it named. And there's 2 more still, so I speeded up again. At the next turning point, I made a sliding break with my black Nike in order to enforce my speed over the direction which similar to a car's drift. Unfortunately, I crashed on a girl, and she fell on me. We were so close that I could smell strawberry on her lips. When she awared her position, she quickly shoved off backward. Quickly, I thought of asking her name and hoped she gave her contact along. Unluckily, when I was going to make my move, she rushed off like she's late for something...

'Late huh....ack, SCHOOL!' I called out in shock that her rushy act reminded me.
'Hey Nim, what so hurry! See ya at school, Monkey Boy!' Henry shouted out from his car window while I'm breathing hardly from my steps. Henry Kurma probably who are my friend for longest time. He got a little gentle side, but mostly he's a bastard who like to slam other with his unfairly big size. And that's how he get his nickname, Polar Bear. Speaking of size, Henry is not the tallest. James Tuna, six and half feet tall guy. With his flapping and unmoved swimming style, he earned the tuna-whale for his nick. "Speak of evil, and evil arrived." James standing at the gateway with his Man of Steel Award which he stood like a steel, and not the annual award from the rugby league. I bet he is having his stalking project shifted earlier.

'hu..hu..hu..whua..what...time is it, tuna-whale?' I breathed out the words.
'7.57, oh, why you're so sweated up?' James replied. Same old James as I thought, always asking this kind of question. And so, I gave him an obvious look. 'Oh, sorry.' He said after awhile when he figured out.

'Hi-hi, hi-hi, my clumf-syy brother, goof morphing!' Jin called out behind with her humorous 'fu' tone and pat on my shoulder. Jinny Toff, my sister from another parents, my god-sister or you could call that. Actively funny person who living in the humor world. 'Ah...da...Mr.Tuf-na is also here!'
'Good morning!' Stephy said dimly. Jin's classmate and best friend, Stephy Keon, a shy little girl but she also possessed a perfectionist within. She noded down her head and shifted nearer to Jin's back after seeing a weirdly grinned Tuna's face.
'Mista..Tuf-na, you're scaring the pure-hearted life there. Stop glancing weirdly!' Jin said aggresively and pointing at Stephy. She's being protective to her friend, but sounded not so convincing with her 'fu' tone though.
'Ah...you're sure energitic everyday huh, Jin.' I said and pat on her head. She quickly tamed from her "not so angry face". 'School almost start, we have to go. Let's go James, and stop doing that, you're embarassing me.'
And so we head off to our class, and so do the girls.

Our school, the Wise Internation School of Eastland (WISE), which have the big 4 words as the logo. It had several new building at the right side, teachers department and offices at the left side, the center nested with a sport stadium, and some old building at the back which had been abandoned for almost 50 years. And my class located at the most front top which took me ran over 5 floor of stair-cases to reach.
The stair-cases almost took away my breathe as it seems also dryed the metal-fish up to half-dead.
'How pathetic, both of you!' Henry said after approached us with his sourceless pride on face. 'Can't even take a couple of jog, huh?'
'Like you would, you fat Polar.' I replied harshly.
'Why can't him?' James asked with his confuse face.
'Damn you flappy whale, which side you're in?!'
'Are you two argued yesterday?'
Both me and Henry sighed. Then we left the wonder fish wanderring alone with it's own confusing mist.

I sat on my seat wondering where the girl heading to while waiting for our teacher to come. Darn, I should at least get her name. How regretful!
'Stand-up!' Our representative called out as usual when the teacher walked in. 'Good Morning, Miss Ho!'
'Okay, sit down!' She replied and everyone chattered a little while siting down. 'Quiet!' Miss Ho harshed her tone this time and everyone turned the attention to front. 'Listen, we got new transfer student today. Okay, you can come in now, Miss Knight!'
Miss Knight...what a fierce surname for a girl, she might looks fierce too, I thought in my mind. 'Thank you, Miss Ho!' A low sweet voice said.

'Oh my gosh, is she?' I called out unintentionally.
'Who? You know her?' James asked as he sat beside me.
She looked around, and she shaked a little when she saw me.
'She is Katty Knight from next town. Please be nice with her. Class, understand?' said Miss Ho.
'Yes, Miss Ho' everyone replied with a cheerful tone except me, spaced out.' With her pretty appearance, everyone started to discuss around. She had gaven a seat just right in front of me. What a fate between us, I thought. And I wonder she remember me or not.

*Ring...!* The recess bell rang.
'Alright, everyone, class dismiss! Go for you lunch!' Miss Ho shouted. And most of the student started shift off the classroom for their break-time.
'Hey, you there!' Katty called me as she turned back to me.
'Yes...?' I answerred.
'Can you stand up to let me have a look?' She called out! 'Can I?'
In my mind, I was thinking what's this about......

End Chapter One

chapter 2

Sail stopped crying. Henry became more silent. I just stand and stare at them.
So what should we do now? said Sail with her low voice.
We should ask for help, I answerred. I checked my cell, no signal.
From who? Henry sighed. Other people? Most of them down there. He pointing at the collapsed Mall.
My mind can only went blanked. However, Henry walked away and started looking around. Seeking for help or maybe just like those disaster movie that the survivors seeking for tools that can be useful.

Sail looked towards me with a "what to do" signal. Before I could react, Henry waved at us for help. We both went over.
What are you searching for? said Sail.
I'm just looking for any useful tools and provide some helps to other if needed, Henry replied naturally.
Wow...you're really experienced, what should we do next? I said. Both of them stared at me while I quickly found out I spoke wrongly. Sorry!

Alright, stop your bullshit and get me some help instead, said Henry with his face annoyed. We going to set out soon!
To where? Sail and me almost asked in synch.
To find who you had waited so long for, Henry replied and continue his searching as he passed some tools to us to hold.
We got metal-pipe, some T-shirts, a Nike bag, and an umbrella. Well, we can't expect more as we're at the front gate of a shopping mall, not in it. I passed only the umbrella to Sail. Henry busying alone, and we're like shopping at the street.

An explosion from a flaming car bring the both of us back to the reality. Henry seem also stopped searching.
It's time to move, he said it like he got the whole planned already. We started walking towards the coast area. Horrible scenes everywhere, corpses and people coverred with blood who sufferring pain from their teared skin. We hardly can see anyone walking around like us, unwounded. They did called us to help, but we just ignored and moved on as we knew that we're helpless and there were too many of them. Building collapsed, some car exploded far away, more moaning, more calling for help, and more dead flesh as we walked further.

Why is this happening? said Sail and she started to sob again. I wanted to calm her by saying, it will be alright, but I can't convince myself as I'm also needed an answer for what is actually happening.
We will know what happen with tomorrow's newspaper, Henry tried to cheer Sail as I'm being cheered as well.
Let's move on to Nim's car and get the hell out of here first. Sail and me nodded.

We reached where I parked my car, but my car already looked like a smashed cup-cake. I'm stunned, and I'm pretty sure my mom will kill me with what I had done to the car. While I'm trying to pull myself over that, Henry found an empty car with it's key on. Well, not exactly empty as Henry just removed the past-driver from his driver seat. He tested the car and the car work perfectly. He waved at us in order to haste up our steps.

In the car, it smelled like smoked barbecue meat without any flavoured seasoning, or maybe blood flavour. Henry used those T-shirt to cover up the bloody seat, and Sail just standing behind me avoiding the cleaning job.
Hey shorty, you drive, Henry called out.
What? Why me?! No way in that seat man! I declined harshly. You know it's a dead-man seat.
Don't be a sissy, you're the only one with the driving license here, just shut up and drive, and it will be soon over, Henry shouted. Or you want the lady sleeping exposed over night at the horrible street? He pin-pointed my weakness, and his word also alerted Sail to listen as he shouted loudly. Sail shined at me with her eyes and flunked twice, with that I'm hers. And thats how girls manipulate boys, a quick joke that I thought of but I swallowed the next second.
Okay...I will drive, I said it forcefully.
Once again, the girl stood his side, and it makes me looked like the only problem there. Well, at least I gained a thankful smile from Sail. Both of them get in the car as I ready to say a second word which giving me no chance to take back what I said.

As soon as I started the engine, we drove off heading which the possible route Stephy might using it to get here. In orderly to fulfil a single glance of finest lady from the deeply fell in love guy, but he's a bear for me, a cold one, polar bear. However, he did lead us both this far as myself wouldn't dare to swear I can do any better than these.
And so, our journey to seek for the lost lady, Stephy, had been set off ...

chapter 1

I looked at the dark sky out of my window, and thinking that what should I do at this ending weekend.
Hey Nim, you're not thinking to go out at this time, right? Asked my mom with her staring eyes.
Erm...Why not, as I just back from Perth the past two weeks, I replied with a natural looks which I thought that could win the debate as I deserved that privellege.
Okay...better come back earlier and don't make me call, said my mom and sighed a little.

I picked up my cell and started sending messages to my friends. Inevitable and expected, Henry replied first. And followed up by Sail and Stephy. We decided to catch a movie at the Sky Mall. It is a great place for movie, at least I felt comfortable with, and it's usually full of teenagers. So, I started preparing and moved on.

I will need to pick up Sail and Henry, like usual. Sail don't have a car, and Henry always got his stupid reasons to avoid driving. I reached Sail's apartment, and she already waiting at the road-side. I guessed she just don't want to trouble me waiting for her. She walked towards where I parked my car. Slowly I can clearly see how she dressed. A white tent-dress with a short jeans. What an adorable outfit, I thought in my mind. And I suddenly figured out that maybe this is why I liked her.

She opened the door and hopped in. I glanced at her as she's so gorgeous.
What?! She shouted.
No..no..nothing, I replied panically. I quickly straighten my sight and drove toward Henry's house.
Hey, seriously you can tell me what's going on, am I looked weird on this dress? Sail asked curiously.
Nothing, really, I answerred. Just that you look great today.
I will only take that as a compliment, she stated like I was being sarcastic and looked away to the window.
I tried not to surprise with her word as I afraid the manly image to be stolen. Girls like bad-arses, thats what I thought.

Couple of turnings, and we reached Henry's house. Just like I had a deja-vu that we need to wait for him as he's still slacking around with his downloading. After 20 minutes, he walked out slowly, still enjoying his time, and he shaken the car while he hopped in. And I thought that I had knew him for more than 10 years, he's really getting weighted.
Sorry for the wait, Henry said after his big wide smile.
Oh...please don't try to be gentle only when a girl in car, I teased. And I'm hope to get a good response from Sail. Girls like bad-arses, keep to the protocol, I thought.
Nim, he already apologized, don't be a jerk, she grouched at my act.
What, am I wrong here or something, he just made us wait, didn't he? I tried to gain back my honor.
You could at least tell that nicely to him, again she pinned me with another point which I thought by using it I could impress her. Guess those who stated girls like bad-arses is no one but an arse-liar then.

Alright, it's enough for now, our movie almost, right? said Henry and he grinned. How bout a we let the car stay moving first. We stopped the arguement, and I drove off. On the way from Henry's house to Sky Mall, Sail seemed to avoid talking to me, and she chatted off with Henry. I regretted as I only can blame my self for that to happen. And I started to think that why all the girls always sided him, Henry, and not me. Am I not fun enough or my appearance's problem. I stopped thinking that because I don't think that I'm that bad looking after all, and there's still a girl who sided me always, she's Stephy.
Hey, where is Stephy? Sail asked. She's not going?
She's going by herself, heard that someone special is fetching her, I replied and Henry looked sad. I knew that Henry fell deeply on that girl, thats why I said it on purpose. Maybe I'm a jerk after all.
Stop that... , Sail whisperred to me and pushed me on my shoulder.
I acted like I don't really care, but I actually felt glad that Sail started talking to me again.

Finally, we reached the mall. I'm busy finding us a car park, Henry and Sail seem having a great topic about what to have with our supper. Soon after I had my car parked nicely, and we headed off to the mall. I parked just right at the side of the Gurney coast, and it got a long walk way lead us to Sky Mall. Lots of couple hanging around at the coast area, Henry looks even more pissed. I guess he's thinking something related to Stephy. Sail seem enjoying her "jumpy-move" which she hopping a little with her every step moving forward. I placed both of my hand into the jeans' pockets to avoid the cold air blowing from the sea.

Where are we heading? Henry asked.
The front gate, she said to meet there, I replied.
Stephy? Sail called out and smiled.
Yeah, I answerred and grinned back.
We reached the front gate, Stephy is not there.
We'll have to wait I guess, I said. After awhile I started to look around as I bored of waiting. And I saw that Sky Mall seem crowded with teenagers just like some concert is helding here. Sail glanced at me with her impatient look. I signed my hand, "just a little longer", to her. Henry walked back and forth just like someone who's waiting for his wife. As I thought of that, I laughed out unknowingly.

Why are you laughing there? Sail asked.
No, I just thought of something funny, I replied.
It must be about my dress, Sail said fiercefully. I know I'm not as pretty as Stephy, thats why you laughed.
No...I didn't mean that, I explained quickly. Actually it's...wow...what the..?!
Suddenly I felt the ground shaking hard. I heard the ground trembling, and followed by screams from the crowd. I fell on the floor as I caught off balance, and I guessed that I had injured my left arm as I started to feel shocking pain around there. Quickly, I turned my sight to Sail, she fell right on top of me. I tried to calm her, but before I got chance to say so, another wave of earthquake knocked all the lights off and sent me to sleep as something hit my head right on the back. The last thing I could see was Sail's frighten face, and there were screamings and...and...nothing but my sight went into total black!

Hey buddy, you hear me? A blurred voice with it's echo faded.
Wake up! Henry shouted while holding me up.
Nim, please wake up, Sail cried out. I slowly open my eyes, and everything looked blur. Henry slapped me in the face.
What are you doing? Sail shouted at Henry as she cried harder.
I just wanted to wake him up, Henry replied.
Well, you...did... , I said and grinned a little to Sail. Now that I regain my conciousness, and the view that I'm seeing looked so unreal. Ashes everywhere, burning cars and buildings, injured crowd, blood coverred wall and floor, and my friend, Sail, almost cried to death.
Henry calming Sail while I pinching myself to make sure I'm not dreaming. What could possibility causing such a damage to these wide-open area? I believe everyone is thinking this as I'm now.
What happen? I asked Henry, and for an instance I wished that this is all just a prank.
But his reply threw the reality straight back to me. As I wished I could know...he said with his voice sunk off.

hope you come back....

Sorry for what i`ve done to you.

Can you forgive me?

For you it`s ovel,but for me it`s not~
But i still love you but how about you?

All our memories,happiness and loneliness.
Tears , Smile
Cry , Laught
I beg you please come back!
I really miss you alot!
As i `ve said it`s not over!
for me"past is just past"!

If you`re feel dissapointed~ i`m sorry

I`re cried for you.
I`re laughted for you.
i`ve changed just for you.

Now i`m alone just because of you,
Now i`m alone without you.

If i die today,what will you do?
come after? Or just pretend ,not affected.

I`m wish i`m a grass.
So,i can cut myself~

you`re important to me.i dont know if i`ll be okay.
you traded everything just for me.
I never realized that...I love you...i hate you...my only wish for now just to be with you.
This summer had been my worse nightmate with this life of my mine,everything had change,you removed my worries.Now i`ve throwed my dream.Since i`ve done this,i`m lonely for a year.my sunshine becomes my night,my happiness becomes a crap.

I`m alone and keep waitting for you to come back.
I wish you can tell me"i love you",I wish you`ll feel it too,but i beg you please dont leave me alone.it is because you know i love you.

cherish...

人生只有一次。人们不需要勉强自己选择不喜欢的路，
随自己高兴活下去或死亡没关系....不过....
无论选择走什么样路，绝对不能忘记自己最珍惜的人。

有些英文..不要不懂装懂~~

sporting house 妓院（不是“体育室”） -

` dead president 美钞（上印有总统头像）（并非“死了的总统”） -

` lover 情人（不是“爱人”）

` busboy 餐馆勤杂工（不是“公汽售票员”）

` busybody 爱管闲事的人（不是“大忙人”）

` dry goods （美）纺织品；（英）谷物（不是“干货”）

` heartman 换心人（不是“有心人”） -

` mad doctor 精神病科医生（不是“发疯的医生”）`

` eleventh hour 最后时刻（不是“十一点”） -

` blind date （由第三者安排的）男女初次会面（并非“盲目约会”或“瞎约会”） -

` personal remark 人身攻击（不是“个人评论”） -

` sweet water 淡水（不是“糖水”或“甜水”） -

` confidence man 骗子（不是“信得过的人”） -

` criminal lawyer 刑事律师（不是“犯罪的律师”） -

` service station 加油站（不是“服务站”） -

` rest room 厕所（不是“休息室”） -

` dressing room 化妆室（不是“试衣室”或“更衣室”） -

` horse sense 常识（不是“马的感觉”） -

` capital idea 好主意（不是“资本主义思想”） -

` familiar talk 庸俗的交谈（不是“熟悉的谈话”）

` black tea 红茶（不是“黑茶”） -

` black art 妖术（不是“黑色艺术”） -

` black stranger 完全陌生的人（不是“陌生的黑人”） -

` white coal （作动力来源用的）水（不是“白煤”） -

` white man 忠实可靠的人（不是“皮肤白的人”） -

` yellow book 黄皮书（法国政府报告书，以黄纸为封）（不是“黄色书籍”） -

` red tape 官僚习气（不是“红色带子”） -

` green hand 新手（不是“绿手”） -

` blue stocking 女学者、女才子（不是“蓝色长统袜”） -

` China policy 对华政策（不是“中国政策”） -

` Chinese dragon 麒麟（不是“中国龙”） -

` American beauty 一种玫瑰，名为“美国丽人”（不是“美国美女”） -

` English disease 软骨病（不是“英国病”） -

` Indian summer 愉快宁静的晚年（不是“印度的夏日”） -

` Greek gift 害人的礼品（不是“希腊礼物”） -

` Spanish athlete 吹牛的人（不是“西班牙运动员”） -

` French chalk 滑石粉（不是“法国粉笔”） -

` pull one's leg 开玩笑（不是“拉后腿”） -

` in one's birthday suit 赤身裸体（不是“穿着生日礼服”） -

` eat one's words 收回前言（不是“食言”） -

` an apple of love 西红柿（不是“爱情之果”） -

` handwriting on the wall 不祥之兆（不是“大字报”） -

` bring down the house 博得全场喝彩（不是“推倒房子”） -

` have a fit 勃然大怒（不是“试穿”） -

` make one's hair stand on end 令人毛骨悚然—恐惧（不是“令人发指——气愤”） -

` be taken in 受骗，上当（不是“被接纳”） -

` think a great deal of oneself 高看或看重自己（不是“为自己想得很多”） -

` pull up one's socks 鼓起勇气（不是“提上袜子”） -

` have the heart to do （用于否定句）忍心做……不是“有心做”或“有意做”） -

` What a shame! 多可惜！真遗憾！（不是“多可耻”） -

` You don't say! 是吗！（不是“你别说”） -

` You can say that again! 说得好！（不是“你可以再说一遍”） -

` I haven't slept better. 我睡得好极了。（不是“我从未睡过好觉”） -

` You can't be too careful in your work. 你工作越仔细越好。（不是“你工作不能太仔细”） -

` It has been 4 years since I smoked. 我戒烟４年了。（不是“我抽烟4年了”） -

` All his friends did not turn up. 他的朋友没全到。（不是“他的朋友全没到”） -

` People will be long forgetting her. 人们在很长时间内会记住她的。（不是“人们会永远忘记她”） -

` He was only too pleased to let them go. 他很乐意让他们走。（不是“他太高兴了，不愿让他们走”） -

` It can't be less interesting. 它无聊极了。（不是“它不可能没有趣”）

haha~ just share for fun=)

songs....

i have no idea to write...
lng..
you can see my blog at the right side. i stting the playlist.
all were yours favouse.hope you likes it...
anyway...the first songs is called wedding dress..
i recommen this songs for you.it`s very touching songs...hope you like it..

sorry lng....

i`m sorry....

i suddenly did that to you...
i`m just feel tired,no had mood...

i hope you could forgive me about that freaking nonsense....

i was accidently to said it out to hurt you.i`m really sorry!!

in fact...i`m happy you send message to cheer me up..

but...i really duno how face you.

i wishly we could be same as last time.i very cherish about you and our memories..

telling you the truth..i still keep your picture in the back of my ic..

it remind me do not forget you...i really feel dont mind already...

i know even if you dont love/like me. i still love you indeed.

to me...you`r god`s gift...He gave it me a geogeous moment.i wise i can marry you

even my dream,but it`s late to us...i hope...we still be friends like last time...

well...if got We really got缘分...i believe we can continue our journey unless you dont love me anymore...

i hope you will get happiness...i`m serious...

however....i hope...we can be friends against，重新开始过,like that time we went sing k with wan,hand out,play and joke,that`s all....

Well...this is just a dream.

i think you wont see my blog..haha~ i`m so stupie what i dont just tell you,and why me to expext for=(
but nevermind...i will always keep it this to my heart.if this is缘分。i will believe the days will come true...

i`m very sorry..i was hurt you last night...i hope you will forgive me...

meaningful of friendship /relationship.

no man or woman is worth your tears,and the one who is ,won`t make you cry
没有男人或女人是值得你为他留眼泪，值得的那一位是不会要你哭

never frown,even when you are sad,because you never ever know who is falling in love with your smile.
就算你不快乐，也不要皱眉，因为你不知道谁会爱上你的笑容.

just because someone doesn`t love you the way you want them to,it doesn`t mean they don`t love you will all they have.
那人不是你所想般爱，但不代表那人不是全心全意爱你.

the worse way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you cant have them..
想念一个人最差的方式，就是你坐在她身边,而知道你不能拥有他

To he world you may be one person,but to one person you may be the world.
在世界里你可能只是某个人，但对某人你可能是全世界.

maybe god wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one,so that when we finally meet the person,we will know how to be greatful.
可能神要我们在遇到那位对的人之前先遇上一些错的人让我们遇上那位对先生/小姐时懂得珍惜..

dont try so hard,the best thinga come when you least expect them to
不要太努力去找，最好的东西是在你最好的东西是在你预计不到时候出现...

there`s always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.
这个世界永远也会有一些伤害你的人，你要找的是继续相信人和小心你下次信的人.

a true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.
一个真正的朋友是向着你伸手，触动你心灵的人.

this is very very meaningful to me and everyone.
if you guys had been understand this meaning....
please do not waste it...cherish him/she...
this is God give it you a precious gift.
dont let anything to stop you or killing youR heart your goel and feeling,if not you guys will feel regretful same as like me..
i qurrantee it....

unknow。。。。

结束了....
我很后悔...
我为什么会傻...
我为什么不珍惜...
我为什么lost control...

我不知道要说什么...
虽然你对我来说是crack reason...
但....我还是觉得我做错了什么...上天酱忍心把我们separate了...
可能我是真的错了...我连你心里不明白，我也没体谅你...

算了...我们算不合了...
只希望你会找到比我更好的人。也希望他会给你美好的幸福...

心痛。。

为什麽。。你还是酱。。
你变了。。你真的变。。跟以前差不多一样了。。
你说你要珍惜我们感情。
我就真的相信你。就算我们大学。我们不会遗憾。。
可是。。你当我就想空气酱。。我是你男友。。为什麽你总是酱。。
你要我们maintain到大学。。
可是。。你变了。。你以前不管什麽你会问我，陪我。
但你却。。。。我不想说了。。
我真的讨厌酱。。为了你我不跟其他女生乱乱讲话。
为了你。。我把全部心血在你身上。。
还有很多为了你。。
可是。。。
你不睬我了。。
你不爱我了。。
这是我真的很失望。。。
在我的mind有分手的念头了，我有点后悔了。。为什麽我还抱着希望呢。
反正你不看到我的blog了。。
我期望什麽呢。。你想跟我说那些话是骗人了。

坚持...

好累。。。
我身心真的很累。。
我真的受好大影响了。。
如果我是你毒药的话，工作就是你解药。
我在对自己说要坚持。。不管什麽我一定要坚持。～
以前在你伤心开心时候，你会想蜜蜂酱烦着吵我分享的。
在夜晚时候吧。。
虽然有点烦。但还是有点高兴。还要你也会说对我好气好甜的话。
自从你换工作后，我整个人down了
让我更担心你。。很多事情不要因为钱而伤害自己。要不然会病更重的。
我们感情谈了。。我真的很讨厌你没给我们相处时间。。你只跟你朋友而已，而我就傻傻呆着等你。
我真的很累。。我负担整个包袱太多了。。面对很事情。。。
我很想珍惜我们感情。
可是你没有。。你给我感觉你好像在骗着我你知道吗。我们的回忆难道你忘了吗?
我真的好失望。。
我很累了。。。不想吵。。我也不想跟你讲话了。。

ermm...

haiz...so freaking tired><
dunno what to write...
finally i change my spiritual and my heart...
bez when i see the chinese article...
maybe i dunno how to be nice to ppl.
i was touching..
i have to overcome my devil side,this kind of mind make me sick and ridicurious...
sorry lng..i need to face and believe myselves and you..
i will do better way.
and you have to trust me.
and our relation.
i wont you let you get regretful of me.
i want be your be man.

爱的感觉，总是在一开始觉得很甜蜜，
　　总觉得多一个人陪、多一个人帮你分担，
　　你终於不再孤单了，至少有一个人想著你、
　　恋著你，不论做什么事情，
　　只要能一起，就是好的.... ...

但是慢慢的，随著彼此的认识愈深，
　　你开始发现了对方的缺点，
　　於是问题一个接著一个发生，
　　你开始烦、累，甚至想要逃避，
　　有人说爱情就像在捡石头，
　　总想捡到一个适合自己的，
　　但是你又如何知道什么时候能够捡到呢？
　　他/她适合你，那你又适合他/她吗?
　　
其实，爱情就像磨石子一样，
　　或许刚捡到的时候，你不是那么的满意，
　　但是记住人是有弹性的，
　　很多事情是可以改变的，
　　只要你有心、有勇气，
　　与其到处去捡未知的石头，
　　还不如好好的将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮，你开始磨了吗？
　　很多人以为是因为感情淡了，
　　所以人才会变得懒惰。
　　错！
　　其实是人先被惰性征服，
　　所以感情才会变淡的。


　　
在某个聚餐的场合，
　　有人提议多吃点虾对身体好，
　　这时候有个中年男人忽然说「十年前，当我老婆还是我的女朋友的时候,她说要吃十只虾，我就剥二十只给她！
　　现在，如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，开玩笑！我连帮她脱衣服都没兴趣了，还剥虾壳咧！」
　　听到了吗？明白了吗？
　　
　　难怪越来越多人只想要谈一辈子的恋爱，
　　却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。
　　因为，婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。
　　
如果每个人都
　　懒得讲话、
　　懒得倾听、
　　懒得制造惊喜、
　　懒得温柔体贴，
　　那么夫妻或是情人之间，
　　又怎么会不渐行渐远渐无声呢？


所以请记住：
　　有活力的爱情，
　　是需要适度殷勤灌溉的，
　　谈恋爱，更是不可以偷懒的喔！
　　
　　有一对情侣，相约下班後去用餐、逛街，
　　可是女孩因为公司会议而延误了，
　　当她冒著雨赶到的时候已经迟到了30多分钟，
　　他的男朋友很不高兴的说：
　　你每次都这样，现在我甚么心情也没了，
　　我以後再也不会等你了！
　　刹那间，女孩终於决堤崩溃了，
　　她心里在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了
　　
　　同样的在同一个地点，另一对情侣也面临同样的处境；
　　女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，
　　他的男朋友说：「我想你一定忙坏了吧！」
　　接著他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，并且脱去外套盖在女孩身上，
　　此刻，女孩流泪了
　　但是流过她脸颊的泪却是温馨的。


　　
你体会到了吗？
　　其实爱、恨往往只是在我们的一念之间！
　　爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，
　　很多事可能只是在於你心境的转变罢了！
　　懂了吗？
　　当有个人爱上你，而你也觉得他不错。
　　那并不代表你会选择他。
　　
　　我们总说：「我要找一个自己很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。」
　　但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，
　　你却无法回答他，因为你自己也不知道。
　　
　　没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。
　　可是後来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。
　　假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？
　　其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之後才会发现的。
　　或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，
　　但是你有没有想过『在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，只是你没发觉而已呢？』
　　所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧！他或许已经等你很久了
　　
　　当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。
　　所有的期待和希望都只有七八分；剩下两三分用来爱自己。
　　如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，让彼此喘不过气来，
　　完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。
　　
　　所以请记住，
　　喝酒不要超过六分醉，
　　吃饭不要超过七分饱，
　　爱一个人不要超过八分
　　
　　如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：
　　

爱一个人，要了解，也要开解；
　　要道歉，也要道谢；
　　要认错，也要改错；
　　要体贴，也要体谅；
　　是接受，而不是忍受；
　　是宽容，而不是纵容；
　　是支持，而不是支配；
　　是慰问，而不是质问；
　　是倾诉，而不是控诉；
　　是难忘，而不是遗忘；
　　是彼此交流，而不是凡事交代；
　　是为对方默默祈求，
　　而不是向对方诸多要求；
　　可以浪漫，但不要浪费；
　　
　　 `*不要随便牵手，
　　 `*更不要随便放手

看了这文章。。我就想起以前了。。。
为什麽我酱快放手在那个时候？
我在问自己我为什麽不能忍呢？
我决定了。。
我要好好爱你。。不会像以前模糊了。
请相信我。。我会做的更好的～我会战胜我自己的。

regertful...

对不起。。。我做错了。。
我不会输了。。我一定要战胜自己。
我相信你。。。但我需要你的support.
无论如何我不会被自己的事情cover my eyes.
你愿意原谅我吗？
我不知道这是不是诚意。
只想请求你原谅。
我们应该体谅和communication...
但我决定了。。我不会再烦你问你了。。
等你需要我时候。我才出现。
做你事情先吧。还有三个month我们可以再见。
反正我习惯了.
不要说自己错。
所以不要再说自己了。好吗？

傻丫头。。

对不起。。

对不起。。凌。。
其实我真的不想说出来。。
我只是太过压力了。。 我真有点孤单。。
我还以为我习惯了。。但我才发觉我真的不能没有你。。
我几乎没有跟你说我的心事心理问题。。
我不说是不想你伤心，担心我。
所以我才把全部放在心上。。不告诉你。。。
我才发觉我不是超人。。我也知道我失败了。。
不过。。要习惯就习惯吧。。反正你不会来这里看到我写什麽的。
我只想说。。对不起。。
我人是悲观点。。
但我会慢慢改变的。我只是太多压力不能一时handle it起来
我很想变回我们在四个月的时候的时光。。。。

happy birthday!!1

today is my lovely women`s birthday!!!
i`m sorry for that i cant to celebrate with you.
well..finally you become lady~ and 19^^
gambateh~ dear~
wish you have a good life~

想不开。。。

最近我没写了。。
我现在会写是因为我不想闷在心里。
我最近真的很怪了。。
自从你去做工几个星期后。
你完全好像对我很冷淡了。。
我上次生气是因为你一整天失踪酱的。我完全不知道你在想什麽。
我知道你有时累，可是你突然跑去哪里了，连回到家我也不知道，回家也不联络我。
上次你喝酒你又不告诉我。我那个时候不太高兴你知道吗。
跟几个不认识的一帮又有uncle.如果你drum了,你不知道他们会对你做什麽吗？

我不想知道什麽。。我很想知道你到底在做什麽？
你知道吗？ 我突然有个mind。。
就是negative的思想。。。他对我说，
你是不是觉得我烦。是不是不爱我。也说你的朋友比我重要。她不在乎我了还有很多～

我真的很难受。。突然有一天我没回你那时候，你也对我生气担心我。
可是我很想问你。我等你做工完后，你几次不回我。我不想算也不想想。
但我想要问你，我有生气过你吗？

我真很累，真的快要累坏，想坏了，我快要倒下了～
为了你我真的拼了.我拼一生中的力量我才如力读书知道吗？
没有你消息我真的担心半死了～我很怀疑自己。我是不是真的是你的绊脚石吗？
难道我们感情真的变吗？
我在想了又想我真的不如henry..

说真的。。。我忙我累我还是照回你。
你孤单你想哭，我会熬夜陪你。。因为爱上一个人就是要珍惜她，爱护她，repect她，照顾她，
不管她又多少难关也要陪她。

好啦。。不想说了。。我不知道我对你而言来说是整样的。对你来说我是什麽。
当你看到你也不要说你hurt我。
放心。。我不会烦你在你做工的时候。也不会回你在你回家的累的时候。还有你要做就去做吧～这是
你的自由。。。
我只想要你安全就够了。
有时候人不要太相信比较好。。人看起来很好，其实后面是不简单的。
你要不要听我我是不知道的。我真的没力了。。

好了。。我不想说了。。到至为止。。我很想要冷静。我不想因为这而伤我们感情。
也更不想伤你心。还有我没有要分手的意思。我是直话直说那种人，可是我不想伤人。
我只是想说出我最近心情写在这里发泄而已。
我只是想太多，被自己思想烦而已。不要在意。。。

mad!!!!

alamak! 最近我mad了XD
最近我很爱幻想呢～
一起看电影，
一起吃饭，烛光晚餐，
一起shopping,
一起唱歌，
一起分担，
一起手牵手，
一起看海，
一起kiss，
一起读书，
更过分的事。。我还想更远呢XD
跟你求婚，
我们在礼堂，
看到你穿婚纱的美丽的样子，
带进我们新家。

呵呵。。。想太远吧？？ 呵呵

why..

why.....

i`m confused what is our state..

do you like me or not...

i know you`r shy...

but ...

i really want you to say it out..

my mind is complicated..

why we cant be those like couple to dating..

why...

affraid...

lng...

i know why you dont say yes to me...

reminded the bad memories in my mind...

i scared ...

i dont want lost you again..

i love you..

i wise you can stay with me..

heartbeat....

haiz...
心里很高兴。。
只是。。我很想听你说我愿意啊。。
这是我第一次告白
第一次跟你靠很近很近。。

我虽然跟你告白。。。虽然我不知道能不能成功。。
你说等。。但我还会等的。

还有。。虽然我笨～ 我不懂女人心。。
但请相信我。。我是真心的。。

love you^^

oh my goodness...you said "i love you" to me???
do you know i was shocked when you said that to me.
i cant belived..i cant breath..i cant think...
i was like dump at the madhouse~ haha~ joking...
actually..the most part of sensetive word it supposing my word,
i very like you, i very love you.
i want you to be my girlfriend.i dont mind what`s the happen
i know i dont have car,dont have job ,slow personality...
trust me..i will do it for you. i dont mind how presure i am,
when you`r smille at me. the power will gonna effected to me.
you power make me strong.
i want you become my first girl friend,first love,first kiss.
you `r my first women and will be my last women.
i always on your side.
if you see my bloger..
believe me that this is my sincerity.

i love you~
love you ,
your dear lin

我乱了。。

我不知道要说什麽。。我好乱。。
我真的真的真的extremely担心你。。。
为什麽你不要告诉家人。。好让她们知道你是事情。。
你知道吗。。
我害怕你会想我手指的小指歪着。。
我很羡慕你们可以玩piano和guitar。
一直说没事。。。
你知道我多担心你吗～ 我不想再失去了。。
我知道你长大了。。。可是身体要顾好啊。
好了。。我不想多说了。。
我有个hope...
我希望你平安无事。。

miss you ling..

haha~ i`m gonna crazy nowXD
i always keep thinking about you XD
i know is rarely to meet you.
i wise i can lay down on yr feet under the trees..
i like you^^

lost the chance again..

haiz... i completely failed in my confession....
i cant take action.
i cant move my month...
my hands shaking...
cant breath,
insobriety...
i really such a pussy...haiz...
but
i like you ..really...

真心话。。

我没埋怨你..我也没觉得你烦..我很愿意聆听你的话...我只想要你信任我就够了.. 我只想让你依靠我，对我撒娇，对我微笑，对我哭，欺负我。 我想跟你说..你对我很占了重要的地位。你对我很重要。

其实。。我自己不知道我为什么会说这。。我问我心，难道我还爱上她吗？ 我才知道我还是爱着她。
虽然我们enviroment不同,我们situation不同，道路不同..
你也问我我也不能因为你而change my whole life...虽然我不知道我跟你相处时间还有多少。
但。。。。
在我心中是属于你一个人，也就是说“ 我。喜。欢。你...
我不知道你会看到吗...我也不知道你喜不喜欢我。。
但。。我真的真的很喜欢你。

it`s nice to see you again...

in precious days...
i wish,i hope...
to see you in early morning,can see that your get up and look beautiful.
to see you at the beach,can see you are naughty and splash me a water.
to see you in singing station,i`d admire to heard yr resouring voice.
to see you in anyway, can see your joyous smile to me and everyone..
to see you when you`r sleep, i can see you smiling in the dream of the brilliant.

no matter what, i wish everything, the dream will come true.

to ling...

呵呵。。好久没来了。。。

感觉好陌生><

来到这里..

只想说关于她的事。。。

没记错的话。应该在我十七岁时候认识了她了。。呵呵。奇妙的感觉呢><

是在法雨的时候..wan(我好友)她叫我给凌打电话给她家人,那个时候我还不认识她的。。。

回到家时候。。我忘了什么时候了。。突然有个陌生女子人给我...我就奇怪。。我翻了折子翻来翻去也找不到。。过后才知道原来她是哪个戴眼镜，矮矮和普通的凌;-)而且msn还add我呢><

这个丫头呢。。老实她给我感觉呢。。很单纯，善良，傻里傻气，依赖性高，没主见。那个时候我想。。天啊。。。这个人出去社会的话会被人骗阿==（长大一点><)

现在的你。。。漂亮多咯！ 有成熟，有女人味了^^ 最多长高一点点了^^ 也有点小性感^^
看到你长大了。。虽然有点担心。。但还是为你高兴^^

regret to you...

i `m happy to be yr friend....

i know it already pass.i cant give you a warn heart ,safety,and promise...

i such a bastard,useless!!!! i cant forgive myself...if i have change...

hope the time will be begin... so compunctious ... i own you everything..

no matter how~ i will protect you until you have your own happiness.

transformation

hey~ guys~ how are you guys doing???
finally 2009 is pass..
seem i didn`t write a blog quite a long times~~~
well~ i`m back!!!!
the year of 2010..every child, teenage,and adult would change personality.
so... damn~ i do not know what i taking about~ haha~
but seem everyone are enjoy a great life~
so i just period this paragragh. bye~